Thursday, February 26, 2015


Thirty. I've thought for weeks about what i wanted to say about turning thirty. For me, it was a big change. Every year you get the question "so do you feel older" and this is the first time in my life i said "yes, i do". My absolute favorite quote about parenting is "the days are long but the years are short" it is the most true thing you can say about day to day parenting but i think it is the same with life. The days are long but the next thing you know you are thirty and the only thing you can think is "how the heck did that happen?".

Thirty, to me, is a little overwhelming. A few days ago i was still "in my twenties" and during the time you spend in your twenties you're still a kid, for at least part of it. Entering my twenties I was still living off my parents and didn't carry much responsibility except getting to class on time. Of course by my mid-twenties I was one of the few who had already jumped into marriage, home ownership, and parenthood all within two years. But I still started that decade as a kid which makes me associate my twenties with that last hurrah of childhood.

In my late twenties I was able to get to know myself and really grow into who i was. I spent so much of my life worrying about fitting in and making choices based on what others would think.  In my late twenties (very late actually) i became comfortable with who i am, what i like, what makes me feel alive and what things in this crazy world i am passionate about. Nothing was dictated by pop culture or "the cool kids". It was the most freeing and energizing revelation i have had thus far in life.

Now I am thirty, an age that will not hold any ounce of my own childhood going forth. I am now in full on adult mode for the rest of my life. With that said, i feel like thirty is an age where you can really evaluate your life, think about what is working and what is not. Because you are young enough to still make bold changes.

Changes are the aspect of being thirty that overwhelms me a little. I feel like there is pressure (which is 100% there solely from me) to hone in on what it is i want to do with the rest of my life. I often call myself a Jill of all Trades because i have my hands in so many pots, but since i feel as though i am "good at a lot of things but master at none" i get lost in my many passions.  I guess, in my head, i feel pressured to pick one of the many things i do, focus on it, and learn to do it to the best of my ability.

This is a topic that i will be writing about frequently in an effort to help me figure it out. More than anything i just want to spend my life doing what makes me happy and what my skills can be best used for.

So here's to thirty and all the adventures it may bring! 

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